Happy Publish Date!

"Exactly one year ago today I was released from the hospital after being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder."

I remember it vividly. Sometimes I wish I didn't.

I Can't Believe it's Been a Year

I mean, I kind of can, most days feel like 3 days.

So Much has Changed

Therapy really has been a game-changer for me. So far I have participated in:

• Daily group therapy after hospital discharge for 6 weeks.

• Weekly distress tolerance DBT (dialectical behaviour therapy) for 5 weeks.

• Weekly DBT for 17 weeks.

• A second round of DBT for 17 weeks, with one on one sessions with my therapist bi-weekly.

• Just finishing the first month of a 6-month weekly DBT with one on one sessions with my therapist weekly.

Does it sound like a lot of therapy? Cause it feels like a lot of therapy. Some days I reflect on my progress and the God complex kicks in and I'm so proud of myself and on top of the world. Some days I feel like I've been in therapy for way too long and I can't stand even one more group meeting or therapy session. It's a real treat.

Today is Sunday, March 12, 2023.

I am publishing even though I didn't finish my to-do list.

I'll Say it Again, Done is Better than Perfect

This date has some serious significance for me, and I really wanted to publish it today. I also really wanted to have a hell of a lot more done than I do.

My "old busted brain" as I so lovingly call it, would never have allowed me to be okay with publishing my site as is. My perfectionism would never have allowed it. I would have worked myself to near death to get it to where I wanted it before hitting that publish button.

In fact, my old busted brain would never have allowed me to get started blogging in the first place. Way too risky. I mean, what if it's a total disaster? What if nobody reads it, or worse, mocks it? How would I possibly handle the shame of failure? Nah, no way, too risky. Better to not try at all.

Do You Know What's Worse than Failing?

Not even trying at all. That's just instant failure.

I didn't see it that way a year ago though. I saw it as some pipe dream that I would never be able to accomplish so trying was just a wasted effort. Better to focus on things I knew I could do, right?

Wrong. I'd like to give a shout-out to therapy for helping me overcome my debilitating fear of failure. Seriously, it was ruining my life. Am I sure this blog will be successful? No, not completely sure, too many factors to consider. Am I sure that trying and failing is better than not trying at all? You bet your ass it is.

More Content is Coming

I say this for anyone who stumbles upon this blog while it's still in its early stages.

I'm Just Proud to Publish

Even with the "under construction" signs on some of the pages I didn't end up designing, I'm still so proud of myself for publishing. It needs a lot of work still, and that is okay. I will continue to work away and over time it will continue to improve.

I have so many things planned for this blog. Like, so many things. I wish I could wave a magic wand and have everything done and posted but that's just not a thing. Instead, I shall be kind to myself, and patient with myself, while I continue to add content, freebies, and paid digital products that I truly believe will benefit you.

This blog is an outlet for me, a place to share my thoughts and fee fees while I'm working on improving my life. It will grow and become a valuable resource where I can share my learnings from DBT and hopefully help you incorporate some learnings to improve your quality of life too.

My goals are to:

• Provide informative blog posts on dialectical behaviour therapy that are broken down in an easy-to-understand way.

• Provide blog posts on a variety of mental health and self-care topics with easy-to-implement strategies you can use right away.

• Provide free digital products to help you get started on the information I write about immediately, without a cost barrier in the way.

• Provide paid digital products to help you dig deeper into the information, quickly and easily, and get results you can feel proud of.

Keep checking back, exciting things are coming.

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Thanks for reading!